falling apart ...

falling apart ...

these are the fumbled words
trembling on the page
trembling so badly
the best of my thoughts
slip and glide and morph
into an alphabetic deconstruction
these chips of carbon falling apart and
rumbling off the paper's edge
onto the floor
to shatter like icy crystals
into half-thoughts
and pandemonium

oh Lord
my Lord
you said
we would love forever
live forever
and never stumble
but now i have guessed
the truth cloaked in your promises

after all the living
after all the good deeds
and the soft sweep of caring
for so many others
how was i to know
how was i to know
that the weight of the world
was never mine to carry
nor there to carry me
but would be there waiting
to crush me
in the end

oh Lord
my Lord
you made a liar
out of me
by being more the liar
and if i care
if i care
i don't want to know who i am anymore

Here's what I'm listening to this morning ...

Oh Wonder ♫ All We Do